Fat & Hot

Did you know the hotter it is, the fatter you feel. I am experiencing a huge increase in fatness since it is almost 100 degrees outside. I can't stand feeling large. I started Slim Fast today & this is how it went:

Slim Fast
Diet Coke
Non-fat latte
Lemon protein bar
Garden burger
Macaroni salad
Another Diet Coke
Salad
Good N Plenty
Chicken Kabob
Corn
& I'm thinking about having a fudgesicle.

Why can't I say no. Why can't I exercise. Why am I a sloth? Why am I lazy?

Okay, I'm done now.

I once had a Dad & a sister too

I miss my Dad. I think about him every day. Sometimes I can feel him over my shoulder.

I had a sister too but I don't miss her. I miss the idea of having a sister. When I was little, I worshiped my sister. I wanted to grow up & be her maid. She did lots of mean things to me growing up & it affected who I was but not who I became. It's frustrating because I let myself get sucked back in to the idea of having a sister to once again but it was only temporary.

It's true that money means security but it is also the root of evil.